Do you ever get that feeling where it seems like things are coming to an end and you are on the brink of something new? It could be caused by a choice you made or perhaps it's just life happening beyond your control. Just like when Winter transitions into Spring or Summer to Fall. That beautiful feeling of CHANGE. I embrace the season of change because I remain hopeful for my future and feel like I'm shedding old skin and becoming new with fresh ideas and perspectives and ways of life. I am in that season right now.
I've been making art for a really long time now. It's that one thing that I tried and never gave up on (much unlike soccer, gymnastics and piano lessons). But even from a young age, art to me was being able to draw well. It was all about capturing the likeness of whatever it was that I was drawing. Especially into high school, the way I learned to become better at drawing was to become better at seeing. I would often take a photograph from a magazine and try to replicate it exactly. And that is what I did to make art and I didn't have any outside sources challenging me in other ways. I became very good at drawing realism.
I am very thankful for the discipline I put on myself to learn how to draw. Drawing is at the basis of a lot of creative pursuits. It's the "bones" to a design or idea. It's the reason why hand lettering came so easily for me (it's not about hand writing; it's about drawing letters). Aside from all the benefits of learning how to draw, it has also presented me with some challenges. I find it hard to break out of the "perfectionist" mind. It's challenging to let loose and create something that isn't based around drawing skill. In the same regard, it's been difficult for me to tap into that artistic style that really represents me. I've put a lot of art out into the world, but I don't think I've done a good job at capturing my own essence. In other words, I haven't created much artwork that I would be particularly drawn to, to hang on my own wall. That's a problem.
All of that to say: I've really been focusing on understanding myself and what I like to see in other people's art, and figuring out my own voice with that information. When I'm honest with myself, the art I'm most drawn to is messy and loose and unpredictable (think Sabrina Ward Harrison). Which is totally outside of my comfort zone to make. Plus, I like vintage florals a whole lot. Especially big, droopy roses. I have been taking this time to mesh my personal aesthetics together through my art. Starting with learning how to paint flowers.
First Attempt: I thought it turned out pretty bad compared to the vision that I had for it. Actually, I've been quite afraid of paint. I've avoided it for quite some time, making the excuse that "I didn't like mixing colors". Plus it just seemed complicated. But I am embracing my painting fears!
This time I had fun creating a background before applying the flowers.
After I was finished, I knew I was on the right track! There's a mix of whimsy, flowers and hand lettering which are all things I deeply enjoy. This painting really felt like the beginning of a transitional period for me and gave me clarity on a new direction with my art. A real "Ah ha!" moment. I'm excited to see how my art evolves and I plan on sharing the process. I have big dreams for myself, and I just saw myself take a step closer to those goals. That is a really good feeling. Cheers to more painting and discovering our inner calling!
Thanks for following along,